Accidents of birth

I think about politics and how ridiculous we must look as a nation to the rest of the world this whole immigration issue, what a circus. . . I mean no child should ever suffer but this is the real world it happens. . . . I don't see people protesting group homes that need repairs, veterans that are on the street. . maybe because I was born here, maybe because my disillusion at what the American dream is. . . when you have to fight for it all. . . and then watch as it is all simply given away. . . but I was born here. . . . I could have been born in Africa lived until I was 4 and starved but here we are. . .

Privacy or maybe just a little sanity

Everyone talks about it but do you ever just lock your self in the bathroom, yup that is me now, daughter is knocking. . . but well . . . .
So it has been one of those weeks, (one of those weeks all of those weeks are one of those weeks) the van jumped timing, cause it has had starting problems forever, like I have always complained about it. . . ugh
Everyone is posting vacation pictures, graduation pictures and well I'm jealous I'm happy but sometimes life just digs at you. Especially now that chicks cousin graduated and she is 6 months younger, just one of those things.
A boy that my kids go to school with is going into placement I can't imagine what his mom is feeling. . . . still it weighs on my mind because of my own circumstances. . . . . and ya that's all for now. .

What a twisted thoughts . . . .

So lately I had this random thought about time, and it has kind of stuck, and it bothers the hell out of me. . Irritated with the land lord for some various reason. . .. I suddenly thought. . .  5 more years. . . is that a guess an expiration date? 5 more years of dealing with NY. . . but that would mean the kids are gone, that I know longer had a reason to stay. . and the idea that the time line is so realistic. . .  it. . . Mr. is now stage 3-4 chick is still waiting a year later stage 5 transplant list, when do we run out of time